Friday, April 22, 2016

sometimes i lose myself a little bit
in the thickness of walking with my children
watching them try on new and different identities
i lose myself

i miss myself, too

that comfort that comes from my deepest sense of self
that reassurance that touches back to a time when i felt at home

i know it's always there
but after time, that connection feels weak
just when i am trying to be strong
i am the one needing courage

it's always there
i just turn around
and see her
holding her hands open for me to hold


Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Below are a few photos from the past month or so. It's been eventful, but as usual, I don't feel like talking much. I actually wish I did.

I got a new smartphone, which I hate. But I like the camera. I hate that I have a smartphone. So I like it and I hate it. I got a new one because I dropped my old one in the cat's water bowl while taking photos. Because everyone loves photos of cats....

We had a massive hail storm. It beat the crap out of my car, and my daughter's hand.

I discovered that I like hanging out at nurseries when I'm stressed. The plant kind, not the baby kind.

I might be able to keep this little guy alive...

I couldn't afford this tree, but I thought it was beautiful.

....and we have free cats if anyone needs one...or three.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Callum Innes, Exposed Painting Mars Black, 2002

I love visiting the Modern Art Museum of Fort Worth. 
The painting below is my favorite in the permanent collection.

This is my favorite detail. I can't even explain why I love this painting so much. 
I like to get really, really close to the canvas. When I was there in December, the docent got nervous. But how can you truly enjoy it from a distance?

Sunday, January 24, 2016

more imperfections, more horizons, life

I love seeing the cotton before it's harvested. Beauty is all around us, if we're willing to see it.

The thing about the horizon is that one second it inspires wonder in me, and the next I am lost

with that uncomfortable wide-open loneliness

i am always telling them "you're never alone", but i don't always believe that

when i'm alone, i think of so many things to tell you and ask you, then when i get the chance i forget it all

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder.

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Barber Shop

These guys were really nice about letting me come in and take photos.